| I haven't posted in a long time... |
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well, I guess when I joined myspace.com I got sucked in and have yet to return to lj. My plans for next year are to stay at SRC for next semester and then at the end of the first semester I will be going to study spanish in Cuba and when second semester starts I will be attending Havana University. Then I plan to come back to SRC for my thesis work. This summer I will be going home and catching up with some old friends and I will be in NYC catching up with some new friends. I also be chillin with a few rockers (old and new). Hopefully I will be teaching in springfield too.
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| The Most Random Start to a Break ever. |
[30 Mar 2004|10:50am] |
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So...To start the break I took a trip to Montreal. Not only did I go to Montreal but I went with Coony and Noah. That's it, just Coony, Noah, and me. We had planned to sleep in the park...luckly Ashley Nelson (Former SRC student)saw my away message that said "I'm going to Canada today at 2pm" she IMed me and asked, "where?" It turns out Ashley goes to school in Montreal...so we crashed at her place for a few nights. Her friends were really chill and one of her friends was extremely cute. Ashley said she was going to visit SRC for May Fest...I'm going to ask her if she can bring her friend with her.
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[25 Mar 2004|11:39pm] |
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The sea of adventures is among the darkest sidewalk.
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[24 Mar 2004|11:29pm] |
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I'm scared of everything and nothing at the same time
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| More talk about painting |
[23 Mar 2004|04:46pm] |
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I forgot to write a retraction to the oil paint post. It turns out oil paints are kind of cool, but I still haven't figured out how to blend properly. Maybe I should just except that no matter how hard I try, I will never be able to mix water and oil...
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| What is Food? |
[23 Mar 2004|04:39pm] |
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I haven't been eating properly because the food at this school fucking sucks. I am starting to waste away. I need to go home so my mom can feed me well. Saturday get here faster!
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| Survey Says |
[21 Mar 2004|08:52pm] |
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Yes, I can still paint after having sex...I might even have more to paint now.
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[21 Mar 2004|08:45pm] |
sex is weird, but somehow I always seem to forget that.
sorry for being overwelming...now I remember what it feels like.
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| "The whole town's laughing at me" |
[18 Mar 2004|04:49pm] |
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I forgot to write about how I dislike using oil paints...they are hard. I will try a few more times, but I really should stick to acrillic and water color.
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| Ready and waiting |
[18 Mar 2004|04:32pm] |
I wounder if I will be able to paint once I have sex?
Guess I will find out tomorrow.
Going to see P Funk tonight in Poughkeepsie, NY. Holla!My grades are hot. I need to write a paper for James King before painting studio tomorrow at 2. I guess I should start writing.
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[15 Mar 2004|01:12pm] |
I feel like this school has me brain washed. I have decided to leave. If I get into Sarah Lawrence I will be going there next semester. If I don't get in...I just might come back to SRC...right now I feel like leaving the world. Maybe I should go paint...but I really don't think it would help.
Leave it to me to feel like shit when it's so nice outside.
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| Poem I wrote last night |
[09 Mar 2004|06:30pm] |
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Vivian Green |
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you would have liked to see me when I was in fifth grade.
when I was bold and loud mouthed.
when I was too young to allow my emotions to be hidden with fear.
you would have liked to see me when I was a person...
Now I'm just a spectator.
I have observed so many...
they like me because I can imitate.
I can mock the studious proud black, or the rich white conservative.
I can cross my legs...
If you ask nicely.
I have muted my emotions...
threw the remote away at age 12.
I have muted emotions.
Now everything that used to be a person
has opened my mouth,
crawled down my throat,
and now it sits in my stomach waiting for me to speak.
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[09 Mar 2004|05:56pm] |
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the life that was once in my painting has left. I think I will spend the rest of the semester recreating some paintings I painted before I started taking painting studio. I've run out of energy. For the most part...I just stopped caring. Especially for school. I don't understand why I need to be here. I'm just building up a bill that I can't afford. I've been thinking about taking time off, but I know I wouldn't do anything with my life if I wasn't in school. If I took time off, I might not come back. I guess I have the summer to decide. Until then I will continue to allow the rules and restrictions of the institution control my actions.
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| The Best break I've had from SRC |
[29 Feb 2004|11:54am] |
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I went to visit Sarah Lawrence last Thursday and Friday. The school is perfect for me. If I get excepted I am definitely going to transfer there. My interview went great. I met some really chill people. One girl, named Jasmine, was a really cute aquarius, not really my type, but we had really good chemistry. I stayed out all night with a crazy bunch of girls and I didn't get back to my host-room until about 4:30am. I had to get up at 9 to finish my application and be at a class for 10. I went to class then turned in my application, and my mom came to pick me up. When I got home I gave Jasmine a call and she told me to make sure I keep in touch with her...maybe I will give her a call this week. Friday night I went out to Westfield State College with one of my friends to visit my other friend Crystal. Crystal kept trying to hook me up with this girl Jessica, who we went to high school with, but Jessica had went home for the weekend. My friend and I drove back home and I spent the rest of the week catching up on sleep, and work. Also having food, and tv at my disposal was a plus. This weekend I went back to Westfield State College, Jessica was there this time. When me and Crystal got off the bus we met Jessica, Zanell, and Holly at the Virgina monologues (the SRC production was 15times better). When I saw Jessica my smile immediately grew, because I had forgotten how cute she was. It had been about two years since I last saw her. She smiled back at me, and we flirted the whole night. Crystal didn't tell me that Jessica had never been with a female before. I spent the whole night "playing hard to get" and the whole time I didn't realize she was being extremely bold for a girl who had never been with another female before. She told her roommate that I was going to spend the night in her bedroom and all kinds of stuff... We went to a party that night (Friday night) and Crystal, Zanell, and I left early...Holly and Jessica stayed and where going to be back at Westfield State College a few hours after we got back. When they got back Jessica thought I was sleeping, so she didn't come down to Crystal's room to get me. I was so pissed the next morning when Zanell told me that Jessica was trying to have sex with me (Friday night/ Saturday morning). Jessica and I continued to flirt the next day (Saturday) and we caught the bus back to Springfield. On the bus ride we had a long talk and at one point we busted out into Outkast lyrics. I found out that we both like "the love below" better the "Speakerbox." I was going to pick her up from work and she was going to come over my house, but I was having car problems and I couldn't go pick her up...so we didn't get to hook up last night either. She told me to give her a call today...I think I will. I want to keep in touch with her because she is really cute and she's an Aries (I have good luck with Aries). Also we have another break coming up soon and maybe Jessica and I will hook up then. As far as sex goes, I still haven't gotten any, but I think I will this weekend coming up because Kendra's friend from NY is going to be visiting soon.
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| It's true |
[17 Feb 2004|05:18pm] |
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I found a man that I can have great sex with and have emotional feelings for. I met him thanks to Kendra. He was here last weekend...It's so good. Yesterday we had a conversation about open relationships. He's coming to visit after break.
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| Food! |
[11 Feb 2004|09:43pm] |
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I wish I had some damn cookies to go with this milk. Wait...Lateesha has cookies?
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